I need a break

All day long I've wanted to throw in the towel and just eat and eat. I'm frustrated and hungry. I want to cry. I feel like I'm drowning and don't know which way is up or down. I want to such give in to that sleepy happiness. I've over done it the last few days. I need to find time again. 

I'm not sure if I like my new job. It keeps me from the gym and fucks with my entire day. I miss my older 2 kids. I never eat 3 meals anymore and wind up over doing it for dinner and snacks. This really sucks!!! Seriously. I need to get my shot together. Nothing feels right anymore! :(