Well, interestingly enough, I am still fat. I'm not sure why this has to be so slow and why I have to have so many set backs. I am starting a new competition in 9 days and in the meantime I'm fucking off and not even tracking my food. It's a free for all in my mouth. (probably not the best way to word that but eh...) I did have a girls night out... sort of. I met up with some of the ladies in the weight loss group and we ate healthy crap. I ate brownies made out of black beans and I still don't know how I feel about that. I think that I feel like I cheated on real brownies. I am the fattest one of course and that's kind of the way shit has always been. I lose 30 pounds and am still fat. NOT FAIR!!! Ugh. I gained a bunch back but I will pretend it's party of my strategy to lose more weight in the competition.
I hate the way my blog looks. I have to fix that shit. I guess I will be learning a new skill soon.
Right now I am literally supposed to be writing not 1 but 2 frigging research papers that I started today and they are due in 7 and half hours. Fuck me!!! Why do I do this shit? It's like I hate being ahead. I am a self saboteur.
I look like a drag queen. And not a good one. I'm channeling Divine here.
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